Wishbone Soup Cures Everything

Feather Tor was the idea, but when we got to Dartmoor it was lost in the mist. So we left the car and followed along the road till we reached a leat. Even without the mist, or the windswept ponies, or the fire twisted bracken, or the stacked granite masses, this leat flows uphill, so magic is here. I have marched many people up this route, because they don’t believe until they are standing downstream and uphill and the water is still flowing. The old stone cross was our next idea, but visibility was closing in. In my bag I had an emergency banana, but far from fully kitted for any navigational errors. We followed the leat back, and the sound of the road. The wind was throwing horizontal rain. It spat through a gap in my toggled hood and drenched me. Dog was zigged and zagged by it; she wanted to get back into the dry car boot space and lie on her rug. I had to crouch and divest as many damp garments as modesty would allow. We put the heater on and sat. Reflected on magic, landsc...

Remembrance Day: I read, in those lines of names, all the fresh emotion of loss. It is easier to think of it as in the past, to fix that hurt to a time long gone; to empathise, but not be involved. This is not how it is. War has not ceased. The lines of names are not static. And, beyond this, we ourselves are not immortal. We will be leaving this world, every one of us. Loss is what our lives should seek to balance. Be grateful for this chance - be cheerful and bold and embracing and mindful. Accept yourself. The best person you can be is not the one who beats you up for not being better. Push yourself. Outside the comfort barriers, living begins. Who died for your right to shuffle in drabness, bored and unfulfilled? The dream was freedom from oppression. What would they want to tell us, the people whose names are on that list? What would they say was important? Love. The comfort of a well made sandwich. Sunsets. How Aunt Flo never forgot a birthday. A sea...

Slept so deep I went underneath sleep, underneath dreams. I think I slipped out of the universe entirely. And woke up here. Warm as summer, the bright air full of small, noisy birds. I will peg washing out as an offering to this sun. After walking by the glass river, arms bared; home to drink coffee and eat ice cream, sat at the wobbling pallet table. The seats are damp, nobody cares. Just sit and taste the bitter-sweet. Enjoying, before winter comes, a late autumn palliative.  

I knew that there was something wrong. Why do we do that? We know that something is wrong but don’t want to seem silly and somehow that is more important. We do things even when there is a voice in our head shouting not to do it: fear of looking foolish overrides self preservation. I never knew till then just how strong that desire to fit in was. I am not what other people would call conventional. Got purple hair, a half sleeve tattoo of skulls and mermaids, a pierced lip. Did I listen when people said not to dye my hair or get inked or pierced? Clearly not. Did I listen when my instincts told me something was horribly wrong here? Clearly not. I was lucky, in a way. I survived, anyway. But the others didn’t and that is impossible to forget. I’m here, alive, but I’m stuck with those images for life. I lost one finger and my peace of mind. I suppose you want to hear about it. Everyone does, like it was something awesome that happened. It was different; I u...

Michaelmas is long gone and no one has told the blackberries up here. I wasn’t about to let on. Under stripes of cloud and sun, a fruit feast is plucked, is popped, piece by piece, in to a thirsty mouth. Cut stalks noisy under walking feet, fingers tinged purple; from fields to moors over the river, I spy out. I shall traverse this open ground, I announce, whilst the air holds dry. But into the small woods we are drawn, Dog and I; her by scent and me by leaf. Sometimes we see more, standing in shade. Structures in bright relief. Dog can easily follow the path as it tunnels under fern and bramble. I follow, stumble, trousers caught in thorny twine. No less happy - this is adventure. This is story living, story making. We become what we live, so we should live with care and abandon. In the light, to stride, to acknowledge happiness. In the shade, to know the light shines through. To be of structural interest. Leaves are falling, as we head home along our winding la...