Creatures
Snow, finally. It
arrives on the night wind. News travels by phone before the blinds are lifted.
Mere handfuls here, thickens cover towards the town. Not cold enough to keep
for long so we leap to the fields, grabbing urgent gloves on the way.
Boots stall in the white impediment. Everywhere you look there is a picture.
Over there, iced moor hills: where the creatures that can live and die and
never be known are free, making unseen tracks. I have thought of them, today:
how I think of them: longingly, with envy, as things utterly connected,
self-contained, without need of ego or any way to measure time.
Little Granddaughter has soon had enough of falling in this crunchy water:
holds mittened hands up: a vote to spectate.
We are still lost
in the novelty of contact.
If it doesn't
last, it must be precious.
No-one needs to
know we are here: the joy of life is in the moment, not the record. Tracks
follow us back to the car.
Comments
Diamond, I'm reeling ... What does this mean for storytellers, part of whose business is to pass it on?
Crunchy water; I like that.
Jacqueline: Little Granddaughter was curious about the snow and about why we were so keen on it. For her, every day is full of interesting things to discover: this one made her hands cold. The snow thing in the picture is an old one: built by Girl, then aged 4. We used apple halves for eyes and they fell out as it melted- gruesome yet poignant and funny.
You know what has been hard, though? Writing those very unexceptional, exceptional moments and being drowned utterly by a tide of something other -- something trendy, popular, formulaic, gimmicky, momentarily-sought after according to what often feels like arbitrary vogue.
What has been hard is recording moments and having them putrefy on my hard drive. Recording moments and then reading about a hundred million directions and trying to decide which one is going to 'do the trick.'
Your words in this post are beautiful and pure. Mine in response are not despairing, but they are a very honest snapshot of not even knowing how this is all going to fall together, anymore. All I can do is keep recording moments and moving in directions as they appear on the horizon and hoping.
And excising, immediately, the gnarled, bitter branches that have, in the past, seemed to sprout overnight in response to every book already hardbound with an ISBN lining the shelves of bookshops and box stores. Because I know that just because they are there and I am not doesn't mean they've said something worth recording ... and that I have not.
:(
(heaps of love)
xxx
Suze: Cheers! :-)