Socks
No
sight of the sun in the mist on this morning. Day is a spillage of grey light.
Mist separates into cloud and rain. I would be almost in Bristol, by now, I
calculate, if I could have afforded to take my Second Dan grading. Offset
disappointment with a cozy bedside coffee. I’ll just keep training, I think,
the money will turn up. Sigh, because my cup is empty.
With
reluctance, add a waterproof layer. From the moment I have put on socks, Dog
has bustled between me and the door- socks means boots means a walk means happy
Dog.
‘Well,
if I was in Bristol, I wouldn’t be here with you in the rain, would I?’
Dog
takes this entirely positively, and we tread out to the wet world.
The
coffee was lovely, but not much of a breakfast. Realise I am hungry just as my
boots leak. Okay, I say, the hedgerow will give me breakfast. And can I find a
single blackberry? Hmm… Okay, I say, I think it goes like this: the universe is
made of energy. Energy that flows is energy that works. A grouchy mind does not
flow. If I relax, my blackberry breakfast will appear. A stream of rain winds
down the hill. Flow. A stem heavy with fruit does appear: every one of them
tight and unripe. It is funny. We cross the brow of the hill, and then the
hedges get generous. My fingertips are crinkled from picking so much wet fruit.
I eat handfuls, not just the blackberries, but honeysuckle and nasturtium
flowers and wild strawberries. This morning, I am here, humbled, happy, eating
wild strawberries in the rain. Dog wags her tail at me. She always knew it
would turn out okay.
Socks- one of the many cheerful things in life. |
Comments
I love all of it, if I can say that, and I love this best: 'If I relax, my blackberry breakfast will appear.'
There's a lot more that I'm thinking but I'm afraid to type it. Sending you my love.
Bama- this does not grow in my hedges- although today I saw something that looked like oatmeal- I think it was fox vomit.